Monday, September 28, 2015

Days 15, 22, and 28  - September 14, 22 and 28

Constants 

There are a few things that are constant about my trips lately. I'm always going to have to wait in the security line at the Phoneix Aiport, I'm always going to be cold on the plane, I'm always going to be tired when I arrive in Salt Lake, I always take the same cab with Mohamed from Sudan and the injections always hurt.

At this point in the study, I can't really go into much more detail. I am pretty confident about whether I'm getting the drug or not, but I'm really not supposed to say on any type of medium. So, I don't have much to report, which is part of the reason why I didn't blog about anything two weeks ago. I also kind of ran out of time. During my hospital stay, my cousin, Machelle, came to see me and pick up some baby things for our other cousin who is having a baby. When I got to the airport, there was a really long line for security due to a DoTerra conference that had just concluded. I ate lunch and boarded the plane.

That's a lot of steps for a "normal" day
When I get home, I just go back to normal life, except that I usually have one or more body parts in pain for a few days, but not any extra time for blogging. On a related note: I had listed one of my symptoms, earlier, as muscle pain in my left quad. I vacuum nearly every day and I realized that I push the vacuum off of that leg in exact the same spot every time it propels forward. Muscle pain explained.

Today, my appointment is super easy- dosing and done. That's it! I got the injection on the left side of my stomach today (there's bruising on the right). It was painful, but less so than some of the previous injections.

My appointment last week was on a Tuesday, due to the clinicians all being gone that Monday. My Monday was a normal day, though. So, it was no surprise when I finally got in bed, that I had walked over 5 miles that day due to taking care of my house and kids, then, walking
through airports. I was pretty exhausted Monday night. I was also battling a cold that turned into a sinus infection. I was ill all week, but have been taking lots of medicine and antibiotics and my awesome husband has been letting me get lots of rest. I'm feeling pretty good today. I may be on the upswing.

Me and Jay 3>
Tuesday, I did a little bit of physical therapy, gave my blood and urine samples, had another EMG and got the dose. When I was walking to my room, before all of that, I saw a cute little boy resisting the 6 minute walk for the CMMD study. I only glanced at him because they try to keep some anonymity with the various studies. I asked if I could go talk to them when during a break. I found out that it was Sarah and Jay! Who live in Phoenix! I have talked to Jay's grandma many times about getting together, but it never quite works out. Sarah was so sweet and gave me the biggest hug right away. This is one of the things that helps me do this study, thinking about and actually seeing the kids.

My Aulton

So I wanted to give an overview of what is happening with Aulton lately since I can't discuss many specifics of the study anymore. The constant with him is that every time I feel I get a grip on a new "problem" in his life, we get hit with something else. We always deal with it. I will explain what's happening with his diagnoses right now starting with the most significant:

Myotonic Dystrophy- Aulton still has generalized muscle weakness. He also has started to get myotonia in localized parts of his body. Most notably in his GI system. We have been able to regulate it with a new round of meds. It is kind of hard to keep track of them all but it has straightened things out. He also has severe tightening of his heel cords, which is why he requires leg braces. We are going to start seeing an orthopedic surgeon who will put Botox in those muscles to see if we can get them to relax a bit. We will know after a couple of doses if it is working. If not, we will start thinking about surgery to cut and lengthen those heel cords. Aulton's organs (also muscles or at least composed of muscles) are doing well. His heart looks good, for which we are extremely grateful. His lungs, although compromised right now due to catching my cold, are good. We still do percussion vest treatments nearly every day. His eyes are near-sighted, but he is old enough that the doctor is no longer worried about him losing vision in his weaker eye. He doesn't have to wear his glasses all the time and we don't have to do eye drops anymore. He will continue to have more muscle cramping as he continues to grow. I don't know how much muscle pain he experiences right now. He continues to see physical, occupational and speech therapists outside of our home every week. He receives speech and OT at school, as well. Aulton has significant cognitive delays. Unfortunately, this new drug does not affect the brain at all. However, I choose not to focus on that, as he will really enjoy running, keeping up with other kids and jumping. And, I've always thought of that as something I would see in Heaven, but seeing on it on Earth, would certainly feel like Heaven. Aulton does know that he is loved completely, 100 percent of the time and that is extremely important. He also will be able to "miss" the hurdles that myotonia causes such as swallowing problems, cataracts, problems lifting, trouble breathing, cardiac issues. Myotonic Dystrophy can be a debilating and deadly disease. I know Aulton is doing great, but it's something I can't take for granted because a lot of people really suffer from this disease.

Autism - This is a tricky diagnosis because Aulton's neurologist, who specializes in myotonic dystrophy, says there are so many characteristics that the diagnoses share, so he may or may not have Autism. However, he has the diagnosis because he gets more services and he displays so many ASD traits that the treatment of them is the same. Aulton is non-verbal and uses an augmentative communication device to talk; he requests things and makes choices. It empowers him at home, school and therapy. Aulton has limited interaction with peers. He is in a new classroom this year, where all his teachers and classmates are new to him. This has been an adjustment. He has limited eye contact depending on his interest in what is going on. He also has quite a few stimulating behaviors that I will discuss in another section, as most of his diagnoses cross over.

Common Variable Immunodeficiency Disorder (CVID)- Aulton was diagnosed with this disease about four months ago. We have given him 14 infusions. For him, the infusion consists of putting two needles in subcutaneous areas weekly. The needles are filled with human antibodies, taken from donated plasma, that we load into a large syringe. The syringe has a pump that disperses the syrupy liquid into the two sites for about 50 minutes. I still hate this. Probably always will. But, it is getting easier. If we manage to do everything perfectly, Aulton sleeps through this. Mike and I have created a little tag team to make sure we don't make any mistakes. They still happen and then, Aulton wakes up, tries (and sometimes succeeds) pulling the needles out. He cries, pinches and is just generally pissed off. I would be too, if I woke up to someone putting needles in me. The next day is sometimes rough, depending on how much pain he is in. We always give him Tylenol the next day in case he has headaches, a common side effect, or is any pain. This disease is just part of Aulton's DNA, it is unrelated to the other diagnoses he has.

Epilepsy- Fortunately, Aulton has not had many seizures since he started medication. He had a petite mal seizure this summer and every once in awhile, Mike or I will glance absonce seizures that last less than a minute. Children with developmental delays often have seizures, but Aulton also has a pre-disposition to them. He has two nephews, on Mike's side, that also have seizures. We will likely keep him on this medication for life because it doesn't have any side-effects for him and it may prevent seizures. We were so lucky that it works and was the first med we tried because so many people have to try many mediciations and dosages before they find one that works for their child.

Sensory Processing Disorder - This is a very common part of myotonic dystrophy and autism. Aulton is a "sensory seeker". He loves any kind of deep pressure and sometimes creates it on his own, by finding tight spaces to squeeze into or crossing his legs and clenching his muscles. Any kind of stimuli is hard for him to process. Sounds are louder, tastebuds are weaker, smells are stronger, things look brighter and textures feel different to Aulton. His brain simply cannot process all the information that his body is feeling.  He "stims" a lot and I kind of hate it, especially how he covers his ears all the time!

PICA - Aulton will eat pretty much anything - that is not supposed to be eaten. It's kind of an awful part of his sensory issues. On Friday, he was not himself at therapy and when I dropped him off at school, afterward, I tried to explain. About half way into my explanation, he vomited, the entire contents of his stomach all over. I took him to the doctor because strep has been going around and I wanted to rule that, as well as anything else, out. The pediatrician said there is a bug going around, but also admitted he could have just ate something he shouldn't have. I think it was a bug this time, but we never really know.

ADD- Aulton has been diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder. I don't know. I think his cognitive issues are significant enough that a doctor decided he can't focus. He is able to focus on things that are motivating, just like a typical person. Lyla is pretty focused on the show "Descendants" and cooking. Aulton is pretty focused on Dora the Explorer and swinging. I think it's easier to throw a label on this type of thing.

OCD- Speaking of Dora. He has an official diagnosis of OCD based on his obsession with the tv character. I think it's kind of bogus.

So, that in a nutshell is what is going on with Aulton's diagnoses currently. I hate to make it seem like this is all he's about. These things are definitely part of him, but they do not define him. He is the most innocent, pure, calm, content person that I have ever met and HE is why I'm doing this.





Tuesday, September 8, 2015

Days 6, 7 & 8 - Injections

There's no place like home.

I enjoyed being home this weekend. I was especially lucky to get to spend three days home before returned to the trial due to Labor Day. Usually, participants have the 2 day weekend and have to return on Monday, so I'm thankful for the extra day I had with my family. We didn't do anything remarkable, except spend lots of time together and my kids were very interested in cuddling with me . I made sure they each got turns spending time sitting on my lap by themselves.

I'm also grateful that I don't have to pay for anything here - hooray big pharmaceutical companies. The Marriott I'm staying in is quite nice, but all I did there was sleep and shower. I was there just under 9 hours. I would be pretty unhappy paying $234 for a room that I didn't even turn on the TV in.

I wasn't in much pain over the weekend. My arm hurt all day Friday (after the injection and some on Saturday). I had a weird reaction, where the site just turned all splotchy red and white. That lasted for several days.


Painful injections today, despite ice
for numbing before and after


I'm got the injections on the other side of my stomach today. I guess I'm just going to rotate (abdomen, thighs, tricep, repeat) because no site is better than another.

The shots hurt more than the last time I got them in my stomach. It took about 19 minutes for the stinging to subside. The ice is supposed to help, but I'm not finding any difference.

Dr. Johnson did a physical before I got the injections. He is interested in my reactions, since each site has had a different type of response to the drug (or placebo).

I wish I could say I'm finding a big difference in my muscles, but so far I'm not. During my physical, I have to open and close my hands rapidly. The first time, there was no problem with myotonia at all. It appeared as if I had normal hands with no muscle issues. Dr. Johnson was impressed and asked me to it again, but it was a fluke and the myotonia came right back. He joked that I had practiced. I didn't so this may be a good sign. It's so hard to tell.

I wish I had more to report, but I'm happy to be heading back in a little bit. I will be back next week.

Friday, September 4, 2015

Days 4 & 5 - September 3 & 4

Walk like an Eygptian....... if Egyptians limp.

This song has been running through my head lately because before I left, Lyla had been asking me about Egyptians. I think her class is learning about them and I introduced her to the song with hand movements and all.

I have a Vivofit pedometer that I'm kind of hyper-focused on most days. I always try to get pretty close to 10,000 steps, which sometimes is very easy, considering how busy my kids are. Sometimes, I run up the stairs a few times at night to reach it. More often than not, when I go to bed, my steps are between 8,500-9,000.

This week, I have spent a good deal of time sitting around. It is not easy for me to do. Yesterday, was a resting day, which I kind of needed because the moment I put weight on my right leg (the leg I got injections in), it hurt. It hurt every time I took a step. I decided I wanted to go to Trolley Square to see what was new and I also had fun lunch plans with my cousin, Machelle, in Bountiful. I also went to dinner and to the Salt Lake City LDS Temple with my dear friend, Becca.

So, last night, when I was ready for bed, I checked my step watch and realized I still ended up walking 7509 steps. So, my right leg, where I got the injections, hurt about 3700 times yesterday. It still hurts today when I walk....not as bad, though.

As I thought about it, I became a little discouraged. I didn't want to walk yesterday, but did out of necessity and desire. I imagine Aulton would feel the same. I don't want him to be in pain for days. It makes my heart hurt thinking about it. This is probably the most difficult thing about Aulton's various diseases: his inability to talk and tell me how he is feeling. He goes through so much; more than me, more than my husband and more than my other kids. His little body honestly goes through more than most adults. His muscles most likely hurt all the time, I don't want to make things worse for him, but it will really depend on what kind of results the medicine produces in the long run (in all the participants). It's so hard thinking about, though, because just like the infusions we give him every week, he won't understand why I keep doing things that hurt him. And, that is hard, it just is.

Baby Mark
But, this is important for everyone affected by this disease. One truly bright spot, a tender mercy, if you will, happened on Wednesday (day 3). I met Keith Taylor, whose son, 6-month-old, Mark, was here, from Anchorage, Alaska, for the study. Kids with Myotonic Dystrophy have a marked hypotonia. Sometimes people call them "floppy" babies. Aulton felt this way and although it is an indication of the disease, it makes for a super snuggly baby that just kind of melts into you. I got to hold Mark and while he was tucked up against me in his melty way, my heart also melted. I got a chance to hold
Aulton again. It was heavenly and time just seemed to disappear, while I looked at this baby and thought of his future. I know it's going to be hard, but this made my work and the drug trial all that more important. Just like when I met, Dallen, last week, this is beyond me and my littlefamily's life. I want to thank Keith and Nikki (she has a great name, right?!) for sharing their baby with me. It made my day of walking easier to bear.



Injections in my left arm
Today, I got injections in my left arm. I ended up with two pretty good size bruises on my leg from the injections there 2 days ago. The arm is the third option, so I wanted to try all three sites to see which I like better. Also, when Dr. Johnson came in today to do my physical, he said that all the data I'm providing them (which includes pictures of my reactions, stinging time, etc.) is helping them to determine how to make the shots more comfortable. This was good information for me to have because I know Aulton is tough and he would be ok, I just want it to be as easy for him, as possible, when he gets the drug. FYI- Myotonic mommies - a woman in Utah gave birth to a baby, this week, with this disease. Dr. Johnson asked me for our Facebook group, I told him about the congenital one and he is going to talk to her about it today. I know you will all do great in welcoming her. Her baby is in the NICU.  
So, the shots felt about the same, although the insertion of the needle hurt a little less in my arm than the other areas. As I'm getting the injection, the last ML of each needle really starts stinging, no matter which area gets the injection. The burning on the arm lasted longer than the other sites, too, about twice as long at 15 min. I will have to see how the arm looks tomorrow to determine whether I want to walk around with the redness, bruising and swelling for everyone to see.

So long, Salt Lake City, see you in 3 days. Cannot wait to see my beautiful family!!!

Symptoms Today:
This is the most exciting one--- I was able to slightly lift my left ankle off of the floor into a miniature tippy-toe. I don't know if it was because I was super determined to do it, or if I got the med and it is working! I had a lot of calf cramping after, but I did it.

muscle pain in my left quad- all week, so weird

muscle pain in my right quad from injections

bruises from blood draws on right and left arms

bruise on my stomach from injection

pain in my left tricep from injection

Overall muscle pain - very mild (possibly due to inactivity) It will be interesting to see how it goes in the coming weeks, as I have short trips to Utah and am going back to my regular routine of taking care of my kids. A quick aside- my respite workers are gone. Kylie got a full-time CNA job and Wyntre is going back to BYU-I next week. I have no prospects and am not hiring someone new, so I will be doing the daytime stuff all alone. So, we shall see how this pans out, in terms of muscle pain.





Wednesday, September 2, 2015

Days 2 & 3 - September 1 & 2

No news is good news.

There isn't much new to report. The sites of the first injections are doing well. They were still very red yesterday. The redness is gone, hard lumps have formed under the spots where the needles went in and they are still tender, if I push on them.

Yesterday, I had another ekg. Heart problems are very common with myotonic dystrophy patients, so I'm going to have a lot of ekgs throughout the rest of the study. They need to make sure the medicine is not affecting the patient's heart. I also had to give a urine sample and more blood.

This is going to be the protocol for most of my other visits.: ekg, samples, dosing and home.

Yesterday, when I was in the hospital, right after I had woken up, I had some brief moments of muscle tingling in my legs. I didn't notice it and wasn't looking for any physical reaction to the medication. I did notice, when it happened a third time and was powerful enough to make the biopsy site start throbbing a bit. It wasn't painful. I don't know if this was a result of the meds or not, but I thought some might be interested since this is not a common muscle experience in my body. I mentioned it to Dr. Johnson, but like I've said, he's not allowed to offer opinions. I tried to stand on my tip-toes this morning, while I was getting ready and even though I was able to with both feet, I still couldn't do it with my left foot alone and my calves still cramped when I did it with both feet.

Yesterday, I went to lunch and did a tiny bit of shopping, but I didn't really feel very good and I was very tired. I don't think it has anything to do with the medicine. We have some extra stress in our lives right now, I had two very poor nights of sleep (with the late plane travel and the night spent in the hospital). And, I had all those blood draws.

I did find out that due to the amount of bleeding I had from my muscle biopsy site last week, Dr. Johnson made a new rule that patients participating in the study cannot fly immediately after the biopsy. He doesn't know if it bled so much because of all the walking or pressure changes or because I accidentally bumped it with my suitcase when I was unloading it from the overhead bins. The biopsy is a bit inconvenient because I'm not allowed to get it wet for 2 weeks. The incision is covered with steri-strips and a breathable plastic bandage. I decided that I was going to put big waterproof bandages over that area for showering. It worked fine, but the bandages are so strong they are stuck to the plastic, so I guess I will just keep them on until next week, when I can take off all the coverings.

Today, I came in to give samples and get another dose. I've got a new nurse today, who did a good job with the blood draw. She found a new vein because the draw yesterday was done on my bruised vein and one of my veins is still stressed from the IV.

I feel like my body is getting a little beaten up. I chose to do today's dose in my right quad because I'm still having pain in my left. So, I have the biopsy and pain in my left leg, new injection pain in my right leg, injection lumps and tenderness in my stomach, a bruised vein and 2 additional needle pokes in my left arm and another bruise on my right arm and one more needle poke.

The dose felt about the same as on Monday, the burning lasted the same amount of time - 7 minutes - but was less intense.
1st injection of the second dose
2nd injection


Symptoms Today:
as outlined above-
tenderness in abdomen
bruises in arms
pain in right leg from dosing today
muscle pain in left quad
calves, neck and back are good